Olga Jitlina
I Want to Live through Your Death
Video art
Mpeg movie, 00:05:44
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The film is based on an autobiographical episode of the author’s life . “My video is a reenactment of my Mom’s suicide, 10 years after her death. I woke up very early the morning of March 23rd 2009 and went with the camera from my bed to the balcony from where my mother threw herself: I tried to look through her eyes and capture the last thing that she saw in her life. By telling this personal yet at the same time common story of a middle-aged person in Russia in the 1990’s, I aim not to provoke a sense of pity or frustration, but rather to share my experience of living through the trauma of loss, saying it is hard but possible.”